Friday, January 29, 2010

MoM Squared

Sometimes when I am investigating all to the internets have in store I find myself viewing certain Mommy blogs (no one I know in real life or blogroll!!) that are awesomely creative, innovative and syrupy, sickly sweet with their musings. I sometimes wonder what type of drugs these people are doing and where I can get my hands on some so I can also knit/sew/cook from scratch/cloth diaper a baby all while raising money for orphans and making my own laundry soap from organic I can't even think of what is in laundry soap at this time.

Not that there is anything wrong with doing all those things, I think it's great an admirable and wish I could be so compelled to be good and wholesome and do those things but I don't. Is there something wrong with me?!?

My point is I wonder if these people are real. I really do! Because some days it's a wonder I'm even able to get dressed or take a shower, never mind all the other things I need to be doing.

That's why I am telling you that it's my objective to paint a real picture of what MY life is like and not like what I *think* it should be like. I'll never judge what any other family does that works for them, that's just not fair. I'll also always be real with myself and my blog friends. If it's too personal to share I just won't write about it here.

But I won't always paint such a glorious picture on how life is. Because it's not. Life is hard and extremely rewarding and so is being a parent which is my current occupation. It's a catch 22 between being grueling and monotonous and joyful and challenging. It can be extremely lonely and full of sighs but man, it's REAL and it makes you feel things you've never felt before and you do things you never thought you'd do (hello! Is that baby poop that my hand is resting in, why yes, it is!).

Now I'm stepping off my soapbox. Thank you for tuning in.

4 Months

Baby Guy,

Today you are a whole four months old! Man, has it been wild with you here in our life and we love it. You have the sweetest disposition. Your little personality shines brighter each and every day. You're quickly displaying character traits of both myself and Alan and it's so funny! For example, when I smile at you you'll smile back and open your mouth really wide while smiling and it reminds me of myself. Your eyes are as blue as your Daddy's and you're 27 inches tal1 and 17 pounds, which is awesome.

I still love to dress you up although you're growing out of your clothes quickly these days. You're wearing size 9 months and above. You're not a chunk at all, you're just big! Which is not surprising at all looking at myself and Alan. We're just big people. I am hoping you inherit your Daddy's metabolism and knack for being athletically inclined. But if you don't that's awesome too, maybe you'll be more like me and be funny, loud and love to write.

Either way, we'll love you for always forever and ever for sure.

You're such a handsome guy! In fact, my nickname for you is Baby-guy because you just look like such a little boy. We spike up your hair giving you a faux hawk because little boy hair just does not suit you in my opinion. The grandparents don't think much of that hairstyle because every time they watch you they comb your hair down. And I let them because who cares, right?

You are such a dream baby, sleeping from 9pm-8am every night since you were 6 weeks old, give and take a few nights. You don't take too many daytime naps, just little 20 minute cat naps now and then. Although I am still working on getting you on a set afternoon nap at least for an hour. You're not a fan.

Right now you are sick with something called RSV and an ear infection in your right ear. It's fairly common among kids your age and from what I can tell it's like a bad cold. I took you to the doctor yesterday because we heard you weezing Wednesday night and were concerned. The doctor was not too worried about that but was happy that I brought you in. You're on a pink antibiotic that you take like a champ. I still remember the smell and taste of that stuff as I took it when I was a little girl. It's the same stuff, can you believe it? Bubble gum flavored Amoxicillin. YUM. Despite being sick you are still pretty cheerful and smiley. Just a little fussier than normal in the afternoon.

Speaking of eating – WOW. At 3 months old you were eating 8ozs every 2 hours and then spitting up most of it, which is why you wanted to eat every 2 hours I assume. We started putting rice cereal in your bottles at 16 weeks and then you started eating 7ozs every 3.5-4 hours. Then we started spoon feeding you bits of rice cereal. After seeing how interested and how well you were eating like a big boy I started you on 1st solids – squash, sweet potatoes, carrots, bananas and peas. YOU HATE PEAS. Just like I did! You love the sweet potatoes the most. So now, for your afternoon feeding you have a bit of veggies and cereal and you absolutely love it. I have so much fun feeding you!

Bath time is really hard now. It's so much easier with Dad around to help. You move around a lot and stiffen your body so that I can't sit you down in the tub. However, you have discovered you can splash around your legs and arms a lot and seem to enjoy that.

We're looking forward to you sitting up on your own which we work on every day. You roll over from your front to your back and now we just need to get you going the other way.

Your favorite song is Patty-Cake and you love it when I move your arms and hands around and clap your hands for you. You smile and laugh and it's so sweet!

Taking pictures of you is funny. You get a deer caught in the headlights look on you every time we bust out the camera. It's because the camera is red and it flashes a light before it snaps the picture and you are just so intrigued by it that you never smile, you just look so intrigued. It's funny.

But you're such a blessing and I can't believe how I lucked out on such a great little guy. I can't wait for all the next exciting first you do.

Love you for always forever and ever for sure,


Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Shoe Woes

I love to shop. I love makeup, clothes, purses, scarves, etc. I love sales and the thrill it gives me when I find a good deal. I know my way around the mall better than I know any section of town and don't even get me started on my Target obsession. Yet I have one shopping hang up that surprises people.

I am a horrible shoe shopper.

I cannot ever bring myself to purchase shoes. I think it's because I am very particular when it comes to my feet. If the shoes are too tight, uncomfy, pinch, or make noises when I walk (yes, it has happened) all bets are off. I like to purchase 2 pairs of shoes for the whole season and make them match with everything. They must have a very slight heel because I have a high arch but I do not want real high heels because I'll be trompsing around the house, grocery shopping and taking care of Henry. But I'd like something a little more fancy than my purple and black New Balances or Rainbow flip flops which I currently sport.

I think another issue I have with shoes is that they're so expensive. Don't get me wrong, I'd rather spend $60 on a "good" pair of shoes than $60 on 3 pairs of crappy shoes. Quality is key but that's also the problem. If you get the shoes home and they don't work or they make your feet smell, well, that's $60. And yea, I'm kinda tight with money.

I need help!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Hair, Hair Everywhere

Over the past two weeks every time I shampoo my hair I leave behind enough hair to make Beyonce a new weave. OMG.

They do tell you that after you have a child you will lose some of your luxurious pregnancy hair and I was all, "Oh yea. I don't care. PLEASE get some of this hair off of my head it's so thick and I'm HOT!!". But now I am kind of scared because seriously, it's A LOT.

It's totally normal though. Almost every woman who has had a baby goes through this and it's nothing to worry about. I'm sure it's something I only notice. Plus now I can put my hair up in twists again because NOW the clasp on the barrette will actually close!

And look what I got for my loss of hair:

Enough said.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Our First Lady's Eyebrows are Overtweezed. Things I just noticed.

I have really sucked at blogging lately.

Must get better. I'll put it on my list.

This weekend was awesome! I actually got to go out, see some friends, watch some college b-ball, eat out 2 times. OMG. BIG.DEAL.FOR.REAL.

Today Alan cooked a roast all day and we just vegged out, playing around with Henry.

So, if you're friends with me on FB you probably know I've been sick for a while. Like, 4 weeks ago in Tulsa I got a cold and it's never really gone away and instead festered into what I thought was a week long migraine but was my sinuses. I have an awful sinus infection and since I haven't really been sick,sick for a while it seems like the worst thing ever.

And um, taking care of an almost 4 month old is very challenging when you don't feel I've been extra run down.

So anway, once again I am promising to be a good little blogger and bloggity blog more...and I will.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Beckisms, and not the artist BECK, because I love him.

I'm not really sure why, but I watched Foxnews a lot today. Sometimes I like to tune in to see the other side of the coin. It's incredibly entertaining to me. Ya'll know I'm sick.

So, I watched Glenn Beck's little ditty and the thought occured to me to drink every time he said PROGRESSIVE. I went through a bottle of whiskey and tequila and still wanted to stab my eyeballs out.

Of course I am kidding - BUT - Glenn Beck has a problem that I used to have. He thinks everything has to be fair in the media. It should be, but it's NOT. It's your responsibility, if you are so inclined, to gather your news from several sources on the interwebs then make up your mind that they're all full of shit then give up hope on the world.

Okay, I'm just kidding, but I am really pissy and angry today. PMS? Not sure.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Short Fortune

We're all home. Pretty great trip. Henry slept 11 hours at his grandmas (night time sleep). Made for smiley parents.

My new little nephew is so tiny, I love him!! He's like 9lbs now. It's hard to believe that Henry was even smaller than that at birth (6lbs). Henry is now 27 inches long and 18lbs. We have a very hearty eater on our hands.

I had a fortune cookie that said "You will fall into a great deal of money soon" and I wish I hadn't gotten it. I'm superstitious in a way and all I can think about is someone dying to inherit money. So stupid, I know, but I'm weird and I can't get it out of my head.

Friday, January 15, 2010


OMG! I am patting myself on the back. Why? Because I just packed for 3 days and 2 nights at Grandma P's house for Henry. It is highly plausible that I'm forgetting something but I think I have most of it: clothes-clothes-clothes, bibs, food, NIPPLES (never get tired of saying and laughing), bottles, pacifiers, wipes, glow worm, 2 toys. All in one little bag. Well, alright, it's not little but it's an awesome bag - zebra print and all.

Now I just have to pack Alan and myself. Why Alan? Because he works lawyer hours (LONG FUCKING HOURS) and we're leaving right after work to drive to Alan's parents.

Henry loves his carseat and will most likely sleep or quietly observe the whole trip and now that I've typed that sentence I'll most likely have a screaming 3 month old the whole 3 hour trip.

Traveling with a kiddo is fun I think. It takes a lot of work but it's so good to be around people that love him and me. Plus I get a little break with everyone around.

Damian Joseph (new 19 day old nephew) here we come!!

Random Quiz Week: Take II

  1. Why did you take this quiz?

    I took this quiz because I'm out of clever blog fodder and hope it strikes me up again.
  2. Do you have lots of friends?

I do. I've always been lucky that way. I have Oklahoma friends, Raleigh friends, family friends, friends of friends, friends who are family, friends, friends, friends. I am blessed!
  1. What's the best thing about today?

    The best thing about today is that it's Friday. This means a couple things to me: 1.) I have made it a whole week back at home by myself taking care of my baby boy, 2.) I'll get to see my husband this weekend because hey, there's no work, and 3.) We're going to M-ville to meet my new nephew, Damian, who is 2 weeks old now. I am most excited about number 3!
  2. Are you crazy?
    Not certifiable. Without going too much into it I've struggled with depression and anxiety since I was 14 or so. I've been diagnosed with many different things from Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Bipolar (that was a mistake) , ADD, General Depression, Postpartum Depression, etc. Who knows what it is exactly - but I am pretty much always medicated and I have a good sense of humor about it and I will NOT be ashamed of my illness anymore.

  3. Men and women can go crazy in different ways and for different reasons. What's your situation? Um, see number (4) and also add to the mix a beautiful 3 month old, no family here and PMS. There ya' go.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Quiz Week: Take I

I'm at a writing blank so I've decided to take self indulgent quizzes as a writing exercise. Here we go:

Question 1: What color are your toes?

I'm Not Really a Waitress Red, peeling of course. I need a pedicure.

Question 2: Do you name your socks?
Actually, yes! But it's not creative. It would be like, "My cupcake socks", or "My celery socks".

Question 3: What color is my beard?

Flesh colored creepy beard. Actually, I've done such a good job concealing it with makeup you don't even notice.

Question 4: How do you know I don't have a beard?
Do you stalk me?
Like I said, concealer is key.

Question 5: Finish this sentence. "Llama Llama Llama Llama Llama Llama..."

6: Are you a girl or a boy? I'm a girly-girl.

Question 7: Do your hand sanitizer talk to you? I fucking hate hand sanitizer, but yes. It burns, it burns!!

Question 8: Who is the hottest guy in Harry Potter 4?
I like that sassy little red head guy.

Question 9: Hi.Question 10: Me + Robert Pattinson =...eyebrow tweezing session. His eyebrows are a little too thick.

Question 11: Who is Robert Pattinson you ask?
the vampire guy with the thick eyebrows.

Question 12: What color is Uncle Rico's van?
Black on the outside, grey vinyl on the inside (really, wtf?)

Question 13: Has anyone noticed this? In Napoleon Dynamite, when Summer does her routine after her speech, a Backstreet Boys song plays. The movie takes place in the 70s and the Backstreet Boys didn't come out until the 90s!

Napoleon Dynamite is full of funny little Easter Eggs like that. It's part of it's charm.

Question 14: Treesafer is a combination of what 2 names? I dunno. I can't even think of a funny answer to this question because it's totally blowing my mind. What does that say about me?

Question 15: Do you feel smarter after taking this quiz?
I feel more creative. Wee.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

I would simply LOVE

For you to check this out! I did it.
Loves of Life

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Tweedle-Dee and Tweedle-Rum

Do you think his hair has a hint of auburn to it, or is it just me doing some wishful thinking? Either way, I love him so much. Look how pretty his face is! Already wearing size 6-9 month clothes. He's getting tall!

Medical Professional

If I were a medical professional I suppose I'd want to do something in skincare. Or maybe not. Oh god the smells, the smells! Decaying flesh, unwashed flesh, dirty fingernails, gross. There's really not much I'd be able to do then I guess. I could be a front office type personnel. "Hi Mr. Johnson! So, you're here to see about the decaying mob of flesh upon your face? Sure, Dr. Holiday will be right in. Take a seat please".

Um, no. That would so not please my professional bits.

Would I care to work in a plastic surgeons office? Same bit there. Blood, ooze, pain pain pain...and that's just the patients.

So let's try psychiatry. Yea, that would work. I'm already familiar with the drugs and I'm half crazy anyways. I'd mesh with the clients well.

**This was a random writing exercise**

Sunday, January 10, 2010

One Year Later!

(oh, and this may be TMI but not really, I don't think)

Today is a memorable day.

1 year ago I found out I was pregnant!! We had been trying for almost a whole year (11 months) and finally it happened. I remember just staring at the pregnancy test for forever like, "really?!?". I just had to let it soak in, the thoughts, not the pee on a stick.

The first person I called to tell was my Mom of course. I know most women would want to tell the Dad but he was no where to be found and I HAD to share the news right away.

I took 3 more tests, all positive, and then decided to tell Alan as soon as he got home. He knew right away though because for the previous weeks I had wanted nothing to eat but steak and I'm not really a big meat eater. I had also been really sick and dizzy last year around christmas time. Now I wonder if it was pre-pre-pregnancy.

Either way, we were so excited that we finally got pregnant, finally!

We tried almost everything but the one thing that worked for us was the Clear Blue Fertility Monitor. It basically just tells you your most fertile times. It worked for us on the second month. Basically I have 32 day cycle and ovulate on the 19-20 days. Which was awesome to know because we had been operating under the assumption that I had normal cycle and was ovulating on days 15-17. No wonder we weren't getting preggers.

Anyway, I just wanted to share that little story.

Kids are so amazing. We're back home in Raleigh now and Henry is just loving his sweet Daddy up and vice versa. I feel happy and relaxed as well.

Friday, January 8, 2010

I bid my Aww-dooos.

Tomorrow we leave this lovely, fun and dysfunctional town to head to our own lovely, fun and dysfunctional town on the East Coast. I'm very anxious to fly just because I always am AND with a baby it makes things a little more nerve racking. Not everyone feels the way I do about it, but going through security with a child is very sweat inspiring. Nervous sweat. It's not a big deal and people do it all over the world, traveling with children. So it's just something in my head that I have to say "Look, it'll be over soon, no one's getting hurt, we're just going through the screening process you're not tying anyone up".

Then I get to fly from Tulsa to Dallas and Dallas to Raleigh. It'll be a long day for my baby and me. But we'll make it. He's an awesome little traveler. Likes to look around and check things out.

THEN we'll get to meet up with Daddy or my Husband and I am so excited to see him! I've missed him lots and can't wait to be snuggled up in bed next to him tomorrow night. It's cold and he's like a space heater. :)

Picc-tchaaas. Right at-cha!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Alright, Kicky

I wonder how many blog entries start with,

"So, I haven't felt like writing lately...."?

Because that's how this one is starting.

I'M BACK - and bigger and better than ever.

Seriously, yes, I AM bigger, I have gained weight AFTER pregnancy and I'm sure it has absolutely nothing to do with my nightly indulgence of Doritos.

Doritos were the first thing I ate in the hospital (after clear liquidy type foods) after baby that tasted good. I've been eating them ever since and IT MUST STOP. But they're so delicious and crunchy and salty and yummers...

Let me wipe the drool off my keyboard and continue.

So yes, 10lbs later here I am.

I need some eating tips. Like, it's 5pm and so far I have ate grapes, a bite of mozzarella cheese and Diet Coke. No wonder my head is hurting. Is that even possible? It feels like my health has taken a dip since having baby and I'm wondering how common that is among Momma's. Any tips or easy on the go type foods you can suggest for me? I SUCK at meal planning for real.

Henry is doing just fantabulous. He's growing out of his clothes as we speak. He's 14 weeks today, just over 3 months, and he's wearing 9 month sized clothes. He's just amazing, though. Grabbing and holding items, laughing, eating well (obviously) and has of lately become a real wiggle worm. It's very hard to change his clothes and diapers right now!

I am still in the frozen tundra of Oklahoma, set to go home on Saturday. This trip has been very bittersweet as I realize how much harder it will to be to travel home as Henry gets older. That and there's never enough time to see everyone I want to see and love on people. Sigh. I miss my husband, home and friends in NC but I'm already mourning my trip home. This always happens.

I'm not going to post any New Years resolutions but I will tell you that I have lots of goals for myself this year. Writing more consistantly is one of them, so stay tuned!

P.S. - how do you increase blog traffic? I have like, NONE.